Lady GaGa - A Body Revolution

As you may have noticed I really like to focus on how society can effect the way you look upon your body. This will be my third post about this. I do this because I think it is really important to focus on something like this.

About a week ago world known pop-star Lady Gaga put focus on what we all love and hate: The body. She did this with her Body Revolution 2013. All over the world Little Monsters have been uploading pictures of their bodies and told their story on littlemonsters.com.
Lady Gaga started the Body Revolution 2013 by making a new profile called: A Body Revolution 2013. The first picture that was uploaded was a picture of Gaga herself with the title: "Bulimia and anorexia since I was 15" This picture was followed by three pictures which titles put together with the first made the sentence: "Bulimia and anorexia since I was 15, but today I join the BODY REVOLUTION to inspire bravery and BREED some m$therf*cking COMPASSION"
By uploading these pictures Lady Gaga started the body revolution and since then Little Monsters around the world has been uploading pictures of what society seems to call their 'flaws'. These flaws are not only things like bulimia or anorexia caused by nasty comments or things like that. It is also 'flaws' such as a missing arm or missing legs. These are things we know about, but would rather not look upon when we're out.
I use these quotation signs around the word flaw, because for me this is not a flaw. This is who they are and by standing up they are showing us that they are brave. They are not something to be brushed under the carpet or to be stared at when out. They are just like everybody else!
We all have something we don't like about our body. Be it our weight or something else. What we need to be is brave enough to accept ourself as we are: We're all beautiful no matter how we look.
Our body is our temple. We need to look after it, but we also need to love it. If we cannot love ourselves for who we are then we cannot love others for who they are.
I love the fact that so many Little Monsters are brave enough to upload these pictures for the Body Revolution and tell their story. Not only will it make people realize what is wrong with our society, but it will also let those who are not brave enough yet know that they are not alone. Being alone with this self-hatred is the worst thing anyone could be. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. There are people out there who knows what you're going through and can talk to you.

Now, I've clearly stated that I would try to do this as anonymously as possible, but I will talk about this quite personal fact about myself: When I was younger I used to only eat one meal a day. This meal was dinner and it would never be very much. I've always been underweight and this just made it worse. I know I was already known for not wearing the same clothes as the other girls and I was probably also known as the girl who never ate. I really didn't care what they said behind my back, but whenever the girls would start saying things directly to me it hurt. My mum was really worried about me, because I barely ate and I still meant that my thighs could be thinner and things like that. She took me to the doctor, but as I didn't throw up when I'd eaten or completely starve myself and everything else seemed to be okay, then he could only tell me to eat more.
Now I've started eating two times a day. I'm still working on eating breakfast, which is the hardest meal for me. But I have never been on a scale for years, and I probably never will again. I know I have gained weight and I can live with that fact.. As long as I will not have to see the number of said weight. If I see the number I fear I will stop eating again. I'm still skinny and I do not have the perfect body with out scars that tells a story, but I can accept that.

So wether you're a Little Monster or not: Join the Body Revolution and let people know they're not alone and that they can love their body like everybody else.

Moving Away From Home

There's a lot of things you get to do when you grow up. One of them is the thing you always dreamed of when you were little: Moving away from home.

When I was little I always imagined how my own place would look like, where I would live and such. The most important thing back then: How it would be without parents to make the rules! But now the big moving day is comming closer and closer. Which of course means that right now I'm blogging while surrounded by moving boxes and a half empty room.

As excited I am about moving just as sad am I about it. I've lived with my mum and sister for 14 years in this four-room flat. Getting a place with one of my best friend is awesome, but I kind of don't want to leave my mum and sister. I can't imagine how it's going to be not comming home to my mum and sister when lectures are over and just have a nice chat with them about the day. 

But even though I'm sad about leaving I'm excited too. I'm going to live with one of my best friends, as mentioned, and we're going to have lots of fun. I know all that and that's what makes this bearable I think. But I know I'm going to cry when my mum, sister and dad leave me in my new flat. 

Growing up, moving away from home and not seeing your parents every day is just a part of life. You cannot not grow up, well.. Unless your Peter Pan and live in Neverland. We all have to face it and it's a big step to take, but loving parents and friends really help with this step.

It's scary but it won't kill you. It'll make you stronger!

Sorry!

I'm so sorry for the inactivity!
I have absolutely no excuse for not writing anything other than no inspiration. Which is such a bad excuse!
I still have no inspiration, but I can tell you a bit about what has happened in my life since the last time I was active.
I've gratuated from highschool about three months ago. Went to most of the parties, went on a graduation drive with my classmates and wore the cap. It was fun! Exams wasn't of course, but all of the bonding before getting ready for a new adventure was fun. After all of that there was the waiting. The waiting for the answer from university. It was killing me! But I got in and started two weeks ago. I'm now studying literature. Which I think is pretty awesome.
I've just had a job interview with Amnesty international, which went pretty well. They want to try me out as a facer and after five shifts they'll see if I'm good enough. I hope I am!

As I said I have nothing to write about, but hopefully I will! If you have an idea feel free to leave a comment and ask me about anything.

Studying For Exams

So.. I'm drowning in Chinese, English, biology and psychology papers. As the title says, I'm studying for my exams. In 18 days I'll be a graduate and I'll go to a few parties and I'll have more time again.

I haven't really been outside the flat unless I've been at the school for an exam. I only see my mum and my sister these days. It gets lonely when you're studying all day and I'm sad and nervous most days. I know I have to get good marks or else I'll never go to university! So no pressure then!

As bad an excuse it is this really is the reason I haven't blogged in so long. I've been focusing on school and homework to get my marks up and I've been buried in papers just to prepare for my written exams. Four exams are over and I've 'only' got four to go now.

If I get out on the other side alive I'll blog more! I really promise!

Oh! And just to make this blog entry more cheerful: From June 15 it is legal for homosexuals to get married in a  church in Denmark! How awesome is that?! Now the rest of the world just needs to realize that love is for EVERYONE! And that love knows not gender! 

Bad Days, Sorry.

I'm such a bad blogger. I promised you that I would make an entry when my assignment was done - it's been done for a little over a week and I haven't blogged. For that I am sorry.

I actually don't have anything interesting on my mind at the moment. Well.. Except for school but I doubt you want to hear about that. I must admit though that I have this empty feeling at the moment. You know the feeling where you feel worthless, useless etc.? It's a feeling I get once in a while and I feel like hiding from the world - which I can't. You just have to face the world no matter how bad you feel about yourself.

I promise to you - and this time I will keep my promise - that when this feeling is gone and when I have some interesting thoughts to share with you I will.

Sorry.. Again

I am so sorry that I have been active for so long. I will probably be it for a while longer as I am struggling with the last months of senior year, preparing for exams, homework and such.. At the moment I am actually writing an exam synopsis that is due this friday. I've only answered almost two questions out of five so I am pretty stressed. I promise I will blog more when all this is over.

University

I'm a senior in high school and now I have to make a huge decision. Should I go to university or should I do something else?
Until my first year in high school I thought university was for know-it-all's. Admitted I act like a know-it-all most of the time and I get pretty good grades. But when I all comes down to it, I'm not really that clever. But then I talked to a person and I realized that you don't have to be one of those really clever persons to go to university.
I don't know much about the Danish school system after the municipal primary and lower secondary school, because my parents only had the obligatory 10 years in school. After that they found a job and have worked ever since. Now.. You need an education to get a job. Well.. You can get some kind of job, but it's very hard without an education. And because my parent never went to high school or university I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to school. Of course my parents will come with some sort of advice, but their way of helping me is limited. My parents advice usually goes like this: "It's your life and you should do what you want to do, it is not our decision to make and we know you'll choose what's best for you. So choose what you feel is best for you and not everybody else." And sure it helps a little, but when you're as confused as I am it would be nice to have some help with it. Parents that could say: "If you choose this it'll be lots of reading and just sitting in a class room for five years, can you handle that? If not, then you shouldn't choose it."
I know my dream is to be a writer and I know I want to go to university and I also know what I should choose to push me toward my dream, but what I don't know is: Can it help me if I don't reach my dream? Can I get some kind of job if I don't succeed? Maybe I shouldn't ask or think about things like that now, but I'd like to know. I'd like to be reassured that I won't end up like my parents and they'll be proud of me because I did what they didn't. I'm afraid of what will happen me if I choose this and regret it once I'm done.
And even though it sound like I think about this all the time.. I actually don't. Which is my biggest reason to doubt my decision. I hear some of my classmates talk about how they're taking a year off to work and then study whatever they want and then work with this or that, or they talk about how much they're looking forward to university.. And I doubt myself. I don't really think about how much I want to go university or what I'm going to do after. This is why I sometimes think I should choose somethings else. Do I really want this as bad as I think I do when I don't think about it as much as everyone else does about what they've chosen? I know there's about 5 or 4 months until I have to decide, but I'm just confused and torn apart.. And I feel more confused and torn apart everyday.
I hope my sister will have an easier time in high school and after. She's at least got me to help her. Maybe she'll avoid some of the problems I've had through out high school and I'm having now. I know I'll be giving this process a lot of thought so I can help her, because for me the advice: "Do what you want! Choose whatever you want and don't think about possible jobs now" seems like a crappy advice to me. I know how hard my parents have it. How hard they work to get food on the table and how years of working crappy jobs are ruining them. I don't want to end up like that and I know that my parents don't want that either.

I'll stop my rant about my confusion now with a question for you readers, and I hope you'll answer it. What would your advice be? How would you help your sister/brother/friend/or whatever if they were confused about what to do?