Moving Away From Home

There's a lot of things you get to do when you grow up. One of them is the thing you always dreamed of when you were little: Moving away from home.

When I was little I always imagined how my own place would look like, where I would live and such. The most important thing back then: How it would be without parents to make the rules! But now the big moving day is comming closer and closer. Which of course means that right now I'm blogging while surrounded by moving boxes and a half empty room.

As excited I am about moving just as sad am I about it. I've lived with my mum and sister for 14 years in this four-room flat. Getting a place with one of my best friend is awesome, but I kind of don't want to leave my mum and sister. I can't imagine how it's going to be not comming home to my mum and sister when lectures are over and just have a nice chat with them about the day. 

But even though I'm sad about leaving I'm excited too. I'm going to live with one of my best friends, as mentioned, and we're going to have lots of fun. I know all that and that's what makes this bearable I think. But I know I'm going to cry when my mum, sister and dad leave me in my new flat. 

Growing up, moving away from home and not seeing your parents every day is just a part of life. You cannot not grow up, well.. Unless your Peter Pan and live in Neverland. We all have to face it and it's a big step to take, but loving parents and friends really help with this step.

It's scary but it won't kill you. It'll make you stronger!

What is love?

Love.
Everybody talks about it. Everyone dreams about it. But how does it actually feel?
Is it really the warm feeling in every part of your body? Does it really feel like there's a whole colony of butterflies in your stomach when you see this special person? Or is it just an idea we get from books?
I can't say that I know the answer to this. Because I don't know if I've ever been really in love. I love my mum, sister and father, but I think we all agree when I say that that's a different kind of love.
Maybe I am too young to know the feeling of real love from an other human being - that isn't my friends, mum, sister and father. But still I can't help but wonder about this feeling people talk about.
Maybe I did feel it but can't remember it because I don't want to remember it? Or maybe I was just with the wrong persons?
I can't say that my break ups have ever really hurt. I know that my first 'love' really wasn't that. It isn't love when you convince yourself so much, that you love a person, that you end up believing it.

It's so easy, to think about love, to talk about love, to wish for love, but it is not always easy to recognize love, even when we hold it in our hands.

-Jaka. 

But one thing I know is that I don't believe in the kind of love that you find in books like Twilight. I do not believe that you can be with your first love forever. Neither do I believe in love at first sight. I believe in lust at first sight. I think that love starts as lust and then as you get to know a person, it morphs into love.
My mum always say to me: "Please keep in mind that you are still young and need to experience life." My mum was with my father for about 20 years. She was 15 and my father was 18. She wasted her life on him and they did not stay together. Now she's alone and he has a wife. That is why my mum keeps reminding me.
But even as cold and heartless I may seem, I still feel lonely whenever my friends starts talking about how handsome and nice their boyfriends are. It's been a while since I've been in any kind of relationship, and I kind of miss the feeling of knowing that you have someone, who will pity you after a long day with hard work.

What do you guys think? Is love really this butterfly in the stomach feeling? Do you believe in love at first sight? And what is love exactly? Let me know and tell me why if you can.

Magic

As you might've noticed I am a big Harry Potter fan. And I would apologize but I can't since it wouldn't be sincerely.
So as a Harry Potter fan I love the idea of magic. I always have. My mum has often told me, that when I was a child I would make up stories about magic and magical creatures, and that I often thought I saw a werwolf or something like that in the woods.
But as I got older I realized that magic isn't just spells, potions, magical creatures etc. But it is things like, new friends, seeing old friends again, love and so much more.

After being in Harry Potter, I believe a bit more in magic than I did before.

-Rupert Grint.

I believe in magic myself. Not just the magic in love, friendship and so on. I believe that there's things out there, that so many does not believe in but really does exist. Yes, I know what you might be thinking. I've heard it all before. You might not believe it but I do. It might not be spells but something else. It is a believe that makes my day more beautiful and easier to get through.

Do you believe in magic? Yes or no. Leave a comment and tell me and feel free to tell me what kind of magic and why.